There are people in worse situations than me. This is my mantra. I should just shut up and be happy I have a home and heat and can work my job.
But I still feel like crying.
I don't have a lot of money. I live paycheck to paycheck. I could save more money by not going out and eating cheaper. But then I'd be even more pathetic and have no life at all.
Last week should have been awesome. It was vacation time. jooles34 was coming to visit me and I was going to play tour guide to her in NYC...... well THAT didn't work out well.
Lets start with the day she was to arrive. I was out shopping with a friend and my transmission went on my car. It's still parked in front of her house as I can't afford to get it towed nor fixed. It's going to cost roughly $2500.
Thank gods for Jeff who came and got me, brought me home so I could clean and shower and then took me to the airport to get Jooles at 11pm on a Saturday night skipping a Halloween party he was invited to.
(I can never say enough how my life would be over without him in my life)
Sunday, again thanks to Jeff we made it into NYC at least once before the storm. We went to Harlem for BBQ and met up with others. It was good until they started closing the trains down and we had to book it out of there.
Well the storm hit, power went out for a few days. We ended up on Wed in a mall plugged into the floor to charge phones. Got power back Thurs am and a car rental so we could at least go SOMEWHERE.
Managed a couple of days up and back to the Hudson Valley area and more shopping.Oh and eating. Much eating.
She left on Saturday and now reality is set in and I've got to sort out my car just in time for a Nor'Easter.
I'm able to work from home. I can order groceries and have them delivered, I am warm and have power. (at least for the moment) I should not whine. I have family down the Jersey shore that is still without power and the area is completely devastated. I should just shut up and thank my lucky stars I'm safe and that I woke up this morning still legally in charge of my reproductive system.
I'm just so used to being independent and despise how much I have to lean on Jeff. He's broke right now and can't help with the car other than driving me places (well, once the gas crisis is over) I may have to get the car towed to home and leave it here for a couple of months while I save up the money to get it fixed.
Just sad and frustrated. My life as usual.