First Agnes Nixon http://tvline.com/2016/09/28/agnes-
and now Larkin Malloy http://tvline.com/2016/09/29/larkin-
Financially I'm in a bit of a better place as I've gotten a loan and am currently out of debt except for that loan. There is a plan in place that will have me saving money starting in the New Year. I will have to move and get a roommate, I already know who it is, he just has to get the rest of his plan in place, we’ve already looked at apartments and know what we want and for the most part are in complete agreement.
Once I’ve settled in a new place my bills will be reduced by almost $500 a month. That’s significant, especially for me.
Come spring, I want to go back to school. I have no idea for what or how exactly. I’m checking into different aptitude sites. I’m so burnt out and Travel will never give me the paycheck I need to survive, never mind thrive. I’m hoping I end up in some sort of research position. I do enjoy that.
I had a realization lately, especially with my new fitness/health plan #fitforfifty that for the past few years I’ve just been waiting to die. That’s no way to live. I’ve done some fun things but I stopped planning. I stopped wanting things. I just….. was. The only daydreams I had were winning the lottery or different ways of dying. I would be driving down the road and could envision how I would crash my car just the right way that I wouldn’t survive. I would wonder how much insulin it would take to kill myself. And then be pissed off that I couldn’t afford the insulin.
There is so much out there and I need to remember that my life is not bad. It’s what I make of it. It’s time I took control back.
I’m doing that now. I’ve lost 8 lbs in almost 3 weeks. I’ve joined an affordable gym. I’ve started meditating again. I’m reading again. Not just fanfic but books. I’ve gone and sat in a coffee shop and people watched. I’ve remembered what it’s like to be out and about in the world.
I’ve had a lot of encouragement and for that I’m very grateful. Some people haven’t been as supportive as I’d like. I think that if I’m in a terrible position, they feel better about themselves. That’s not what a true friend is. I’m trying to cut the negativity out of my life and sadly that means letting go of some people.
I’m still going to be the sarcastic lil’ bitch I’ve always been. I’m just gonna have a great job and a bangin bod to go with it!
Hive Mind, I need your help.
Recently I saw myself on film. I know the camera adds pounds. But not 60 or so. To that end, during one of the most stressful times of my life and the beginning of the holiday season I've decided to finally lose weight. I'm now keeping a food diary (which as a diabetic I really should have had one to begin with) to keep track of what I'm eating. I'm trying to walk during lunch and at night (the pouring rain isn't helping). While my cousin suggested CrossFit which seems awesome, yet intimidating it's WAY out of my price range at the moment. I also have sensory sues in large cavernous spaces like gyms (I can't really explain it). So while I'm starting small, I intend to finish this, well not finish it, continue it as a way of life. Food, exercise, taking care of myself.
Ok, here is where I need some expert advice. Does anyone have a rec' of an app or way of keeping track of the food diary and the exercise. I know there are a few new electronic things out there that can help. I am very much a visual learner and am interested in things that can help me track my progress. (other than my scale).
Any suggestions that you have that don't require a large amount of spending would be greatly appreciated. I've been told about Myfitnesspal.com which does seem to have some great ways of tracking my food, I'm not sure about the exercise part and I'm unclear about their apps.