emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
Hi all, I'm sorry to have to do this. But I really need some help. I know most of you by now know I'm in financial trouble. I just can't catch up. Please help if you can and if you can't please pass the word. I know some of you helped me out in December, thank you so much, but I didn't come close to meeting my goals. I'd like to not loose the roof over my head. Thanks.


If you want to unfriend me I'll understand.  I just need to get the word out. Pride be damned.
emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
I've got a friends who are pretty awesome. These two in particular, Dan and Kathy, they get hit time and time again but still get up.  They're hurting financially right now. I know almost everyone is, myself included.  I wasn't able to send more than a couple dollars but hopefully you great people of LJ land can.

Here is the link to their page.



Jul. 1st, 2014 12:36 pm
emyrldlady: (Spoilers)

Recently I’ve been setting goals for myself. I’m sort of meeting them.

For the month of June one of my goal was to write down everything I spent in order to set a budget. I think I did pretty good, I consistently wrote in my book and kept receipts with me if I didn’t have my book. At the end of the month I’m off, but I kinda expected that, I’m terrible with math. BUT I’m only off by about $43. It was $63 till I remembered I got quarters for laundry for the month. I’m still keeping up with it and I’ve dramatically cut down on take out and Dunkin Donuts.


I’ve got a story going on Archive of Our Own. It’s an Avengers AU. I’m up to about 8k in words and 8 chapters so far. I had intended to make this a 10 chapter story as I like the short and sweet but it’s starting to take on a mind of its own. I don’t mind that though as it means WRITING!!

I started a writing goal of 250 words a day 5 days a week, and no rollover. If I write 500 words it doesn’t count for 2 days. I figured this was a pretty simple goal but I managed to miss it the first week. But HELLA proud of my 2nd week. Wrote more than double my goal for SIX days! So yay me!

I don’t know how the goal reaching will go once my story is finished but hey, writing!

(Oh look, 289 words right here! That means I’ve met my goal for today!! But I’m still going to try and work on the next chapter.)

emyrldlady: (Spoilers)

Title: Appraising You
Chapters: 4/?
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Characters: Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Natasha Romanov, Bruce Banner, Tony Stark
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, antiques, Marksman Clint
Phil Coulson is an expert in medieval weapons and Clint wants to know what his is worth.


emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
I've finally started writing again. Thank the gods my muse has returned after a LONG hiatus.

I've been putting my writing up over on AO3.  My last few stories have been Avengers/Agents of SHIELD.  A short one shot, a multi chapter complete, and a WIP AU,

The Voice In Your Ear )   
Follow You, Follow Me )

Appraising You )

Hope you enjoy.
emyrldlady: (Maureen OHara)
Forgive me this post.

Mother’s day has come, and mostly gone. And well…

At 47 I still can’t describe my relationship with my mother. I loved her that much I know, and I believe that she loved me as well.

Some of you may know, my mother disappeared from my life in 1996. I spoke to her in April advising that I was in the middle of my divorce and was moving back to NJ. When I called in May to let her know I was settled her line was disconnected. I called her job and had been told that she stopped coming to work without notice several weeks prior. They had checked and her apartment was empty. My mother had a habit of sort of just, going away for a while. It was complicated. She had done it my whole life, and since I had moved, she had no way to contact me.

For many years I kept a listed phone number in hopes she would find me. But she never did. I couldn't afford to hire someone to search for her. I periodically do an online search in the hopes that I would find her.

I recently found her death notice.

It seems she passed away several years ago. I've been trying to sort out my feelings.

I've no idea where she's buried, or even if she's buried. I don't know how she spent her last years, or if she was alone. I hope she wasn't alone.

So, even if you've got a complicated relationship with your mother, hug her for me will you?

RIP - Midget Malone Russell. Born March 17th 1927 - Died December 18th 2006

This is the last photo of me with both my parents. It was taken a few months before my father's death in 1988.


Part 2!

May. 2nd, 2014 09:19 pm
emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
Follow You, Follow Me (2601 words) by Emyrldlady
Chapters: 2/?
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Characters: Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Maria Hill, Tony Stark, Melinda May, Leo Fitz, Jemma Simmons, Skye (Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.), Grant Ward

What if Coulson's badge wasn't the only one that lit up?


emyrldlady: (Hawkeye falling)

Follow You, Follow Me
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Characters: Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Maria Hill, Tony Stark, Melinda May, Leo Fitz, Jemma Simmons, Skye (Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.), Grant Ward

What if Coulson’s badge wasn’t the only one that lit up?

Read here on AO3 )

emyrldlady: (Default)

Cuz all the kewl kids are doing it I might as well too. (once I figure out how)

Dr Who:  http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/208642.html#cutid1 

I did a couple of DW but had posted them direct to the coms and now are somewhere in the vortex. This is the only one I could find. It’s also the first fanfic I ever wrote.


Red is my colour:  http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/290914.html

Sunday Smut: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/291433.html

Death Box: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/231969.html

Diary of Ianto Jones: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/239871.html#cutid1

One Shots: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/292832.html

TW100: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/294237.html

The Grass is Greener: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/277649.html#cutid1

The Cutting Edge: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/287420.html

Family Affair:

COT Nominations:

Family Affair:

Ten Minutes and Counting:

emyrldlady: (Katherine H. Whuuu?)
manners )
emyrldlady: (Snow Rose)
My Aunt Jo (Josephine) passed away on Jan 2. She was 93 and still drove. She was 4'11 spitfire filled with class and sass. I wasn't as close to my family as most of them, I was the straggler, the youngest of my many MANY cousins, most of whom were full grown adults when I was born. Heck my godparents are cousins.

I really only have one standout memory of Aunt Jo. I was 13 and ended up in the hospital having emergency surgery to remove my appendix.  I spent a week in the hospital and was devastated because I was supposed to go 'grown up dress shopping' because I was going to a wedding and not at the kiddie table. I was getting out of the hospital the morning of the wedding. The night before Aunt Jo came breezing in to the hospital like Auntie Mame and produced a large dress box (yes the old fashioned kind) and said I could borrow one of her dresses. Guys... it was from Saks 5th Avenue. I was THIRTEEN. It was a beautiful green and gold dress that fit me perfectly and she had shoes and a bag to match. She was like my fairy godmother!

Aunt Jo was always elegant, and fun and full of advice. I'm going to miss her.
emyrldlady: (Get yer Freak on)
New Year's Resolutions

Go to the museum, any museum
See a show on Broadway
Completely redecorate the apartment
Keep the apartment clean
Cook more
Cut down on soda
Take better care of my appearance
Listen to more music
Make a reading list and READ
Take better care of my health
Work smarter AND harder
Get a permanent job
Stop procrastinating
Pay back what you owe & pay it forward
Go out more, it doesn't have to be expensive
Get involved
Get a life
Get your credit score up
Get a new car (new to me)
Go out on a date
Go out on several dates
Remember how to flirt
Go to Faire more often
Keep in touch with old friends
Make new friends
Stop being afraid
Be a Bombshell again
Go on a road trip (preferably in a safe car)
Get to the beach and boardwalk
Start writing again
Step outside my comfort zone once in a while
Get your hands dirty

emyrldlady: (corset)
It's a lazy Saturday and I'm enjoying the simple things.

I went to the book store this morning, shared coffee with a friend and bought a new journal for the new year.

Cleaned out some files and found some music to inspire me. Years ago someone made me a couple of Torchsong Singers CDs. Ella, Etta, Kay Starr, Lena Horn.... this type of music lulls me. It feels so sensual and enticing. I've been so wrapped up in my problems that I've forgotten the simple enjoyment of music.

Dinner is in the oven and I'm enjoying the music and some more coffee.

p.s. If anyone can rec newer singers in the Torchsong style that would be great!
emyrldlady: (Disaster)
Hi all,

I things are bad for a lot of us. Unfortunately it's my turn. I've always been able to scrape by, but it's gotten worse the past few months. My previous post details it a bit more. But the run down is, no job, no health insurance, unemployment is about to run out and I can't afford my insulin or other necessary medications. In fact I should probably be in the hospital with DKA (Diabetic Keto-asitosis) as my sugars are constantly in the 400-500 range right now.

I've not paid my rent yet and won't be able to this month. I'm short about $600 and it's already the end of the month. I have to come up with money for the Affordable Health Care plan before next week or I don't get insurance, that's another $350.

My car is dangerously undrivable, yet I still am. I'm waiting for the wheels to fall off on top of just replacing the starter last month.

I don't like to ask for help. Seriously, I'm crying just typing this. But I've no support. I'm completely on my own and really need a hand. I've set up a gofundme link in the hopes I can get enough to pay my bills and get the car fixed. The link is below.


I'm not crafty or talented really the only thing I could do to repay you would be to try and write you a short story of some kind. (You could also think of it as a birthday present as my birthday is in 2 weeks)

I know that everyone has it rough financially, especially at the holidays, but if you can swing anything I'd be very appreciative.

Also if anyone is hiring a corporate travel agent or travel coordinator in the NJ area (Apollo GDS) paying in the $45+ range please let me know, I've 25 years experience.

emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
I know my LJ has become a place to complain about my life instead of writing stories. But I keep hoping that if I spew it out maybe I'll find some answers. I haven't really got another outlet so you guys are it. Feel special.

Depression ahead, feel free to skip. )
emyrldlady: (Get yer Freak on)
Here's the thing about dreams. What if you don't have any. What happens when you've spent your whole life denying yourself dreams. What if you learned very early in life that wishing and dreaming only lead to disappointment. What if every time you hoped, every time you started to open  your heart someone or something just punched you back down again.

I want to be an actress = that's not  a real job
I want to be an archeologist = you're not smart enough
I want to be a teacher = no one would listen to you
I want to be a writer = you spent too much time inside your head
I want to travel the world = you'll end up dead in some back alley
I want to sing = you're terrible at it
I want to be loved = that's a stupid thing to want

Who would dream after a lifetime of that? What would you even dream of?
emyrldlady: (Epic Rory)
I'm going to take a moment to squee here.

Last night, thanks to a friend who got comp tickets I got to see Once on Broadway before Arthur Darvil leaves at the end of the month. It was a great show, the music heartfelt and lively. I don't always connect to music and for me to forget who I was watching and instead listen tells me how good Arthur was.

I'd met Arthur at Hurricane Who, a Doctor Who convention in Orlando, two years ago. I was part of the staff so we spent quite a bit of time together. But hey, it was a convention two years ago, I had only mild hope he'd remember who I was. When he looked up at me, really looked, not the polite, hello yes I'll take a picture with you, he nearly dove over the barrier that was there to protect him! He was all smiles and laughs and hugs (nobody online got hugs but me). He admonished me for waiting so long to come see him and was bummed that he couldn't come out for drinks after the show with me, instead the cast was going to a studio to rehearse/record for a show they are doing at the Highline Ballroom before he leaves NYC.

I've been rather depressed lately, all that for another post, but this really put a smile on my face that was truly needed.

emyrldlady: (Spoilers)
I go to NYCC every year, it's just a train ride for me. It's very exhausting but a lot of fun. I generally don't go for photo ops or signatures. It's really expensive!! HOWEVER, this year both John Barrowman AND Gareth David Lloyd were there. For those of you who know me & those of you who met me, I have been trying to get a photo op with the two of them ever since the disastrous Torchsong (we call it Torchtanic) convention in 2009 where the Johncentric event in which John did not attend. This is when he tore his ACL and was banned from flying. I have about 10 pics with Gareth because I've seen him 4 times and we were not reimbursed for the extra photo ops we bought at Torchtanic but were able to 'trade John for Gareth'. I FINALLY met John just this past May at Philly ComicCon and got the 'John Bit my Boob' photo. Below are the pics from this weekend. They are just cell phone photos of the originals as I haven't got my jpegs yet.


I SWEAR the pic with John pose was not my idea!! I'm innocent this time. He just grabbed me from behind, hence the rather startled but pleased look on my face. When he saw it he signed it 'Love your boobs!'


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