If you want to unfriend me I'll understand. I just need to get the word out. Pride be damned.
Here is the link to their page.
Recently I’ve been setting goals for myself. I’m sort of meeting them.
For the month of June one of my goal was to write down everything I spent in order to set a budget. I think I did pretty good, I consistently wrote in my book and kept receipts with me if I didn’t have my book. At the end of the month I’m off, but I kinda expected that, I’m terrible with math. BUT I’m only off by about $43. It was $63 till I remembered I got quarters for laundry for the month. I’m still keeping up with it and I’ve dramatically cut down on take out and Dunkin Donuts.
Writing. OH THANK GOD I’M WRITING AGAIN.
I’ve got a story going on Archive of Our Own. It’s an Avengers AU. I’m up to about 8k in words and 8 chapters so far. I had intended to make this a 10 chapter story as I like the short and sweet but it’s starting to take on a mind of its own. I don’t mind that though as it means WRITING!!
I started a writing goal of 250 words a day 5 days a week, and no rollover. If I write 500 words it doesn’t count for 2 days. I figured this was a pretty simple goal but I managed to miss it the first week. But HELLA proud of my 2nd week. Wrote more than double my goal for SIX days! So yay me!
I don’t know how the goal reaching will go once my story is finished but hey, writing!
(Oh look, 289 words right here! That means I’ve met my goal for today!! But I’m still going to try and work on the next chapter.)
I've been putting my writing up over on AO3. My last few stories have been Avengers/Agents of SHIELD. A short one shot, a multi chapter complete, and a WIP AU,
( The Voice In Your Ear )
( Follow You, Follow Me )
( Appraising You )
Hope you enjoy.
Mother’s day has come, and mostly gone. And well…
At 47 I still can’t describe my relationship with my mother. I loved her that much I know, and I believe that she loved me as well.
Some of you may know, my mother disappeared from my life in 1996. I spoke to her in April advising that I was in the middle of my divorce and was moving back to NJ. When I called in May to let her know I was settled her line was disconnected. I called her job and had been told that she stopped coming to work without notice several weeks prior. They had checked and her apartment was empty. My mother had a habit of sort of just, going away for a while. It was complicated. She had done it my whole life, and since I had moved, she had no way to contact me.
For many years I kept a listed phone number in hopes she would find me. But she never did. I couldn't afford to hire someone to search for her. I periodically do an online search in the hopes that I would find her.
I recently found her death notice.
It seems she passed away several years ago. I've been trying to sort out my feelings.
I've no idea where she's buried, or even if she's buried. I don't know how she spent her last years, or if she was alone. I hope she wasn't alone.
So, even if you've got a complicated relationship with your mother, hug her for me will you?
RIP - Midget Malone Russell. Born March 17th 1927 - Died December 18th 2006
This is the last photo of me with both my parents. It was taken a few months before my father's death in 1988.
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV)
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Characters: Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Maria Hill, Tony Stark, Melinda May, Leo Fitz, Jemma Simmons, Skye (Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.), Grant Ward
What if Coulson's badge wasn't the only one that lit up?
Cuz all the kewl kids are doing it I might as well too. (once I figure out how)
Dr Who: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
I did a couple of DW but had posted them direct to the coms and now are somewhere in the vortex. This is the only one I could find. It’s also the first fanfic I ever wrote.
Red is my colour: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Sunday Smut: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Death Box: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Diary of Ianto Jones: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
One Shots: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
The Grass is Greener: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
The Cutting Edge: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Family Affair: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Family Affair: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
Ten Minutes and Counting: http://emyrldlady.livejournal.com/
I really only have one standout memory of Aunt Jo. I was 13 and ended up in the hospital having emergency surgery to remove my appendix. I spent a week in the hospital and was devastated because I was supposed to go 'grown up dress shopping' because I was going to a wedding and not at the kiddie table. I was getting out of the hospital the morning of the wedding. The night before Aunt Jo came breezing in to the hospital like Auntie Mame and produced a large dress box (yes the old fashioned kind) and said I could borrow one of her dresses. Guys... it was from Saks 5th Avenue. I was THIRTEEN. It was a beautiful green and gold dress that fit me perfectly and she had shoes and a bag to match. She was like my fairy godmother!
Aunt Jo was always elegant, and fun and full of advice. I'm going to miss her.
Go to the museum, any museum
See a show on Broadway
Completely redecorate the apartment
Keep the apartment clean
Cut down on soda
Take better care of my appearance
Listen to more music
Make a reading list and READ
Take better care of my health
Work smarter AND harder
Pay back what you owe & pay it forward
Go out more, it doesn't have to be expensive
Get a life
Get your credit score up
Get a new car (new to me)
Go out on a date
Go out on several dates
Remember how to flirt
Go to Faire more often
Keep in touch with old friends
Make new friends
Be a Bombshell again
Go on a road trip (preferably in a safe car)
Get to the beach and boardwalk
Step outside my comfort zone once in a while
Get your hands dirty
I went to the book store this morning, shared coffee with a friend and bought a new journal for the new year.
Cleaned out some files and found some music to inspire me. Years ago someone made me a couple of Torchsong Singers CDs. Ella, Etta, Kay Starr, Lena Horn.... this type of music lulls me. It feels so sensual and enticing. I've been so wrapped up in my problems that I've forgotten the simple enjoyment of music.
Dinner is in the oven and I'm enjoying the music and some more coffee.
p.s. If anyone can rec newer singers in the Torchsong style that would be great!
I things are bad for a lot of us. Unfortunately it's my turn. I've always been able to scrape by, but it's gotten worse the past few months. My previous post details it a bit more. But the run down is, no job, no health insurance, unemployment is about to run out and I can't afford my insulin or other necessary medications. In fact I should probably be in the hospital with DKA (Diabetic Keto-asitosis) as my sugars are constantly in the 400-500 range right now.
I've not paid my rent yet and won't be able to this month. I'm short about $600 and it's already the end of the month. I have to come up with money for the Affordable Health Care plan before next week or I don't get insurance, that's another $350.
My car is dangerously undrivable, yet I still am. I'm waiting for the wheels to fall off on top of just replacing the starter last month.
I don't like to ask for help. Seriously, I'm crying just typing this. But I've no support. I'm completely on my own and really need a hand. I've set up a gofundme link in the hopes I can get enough to pay my bills and get the car fixed. The link is below.
I'm not crafty or talented really the only thing I could do to repay you would be to try and write you a short story of some kind. (You could also think of it as a birthday present as my birthday is in 2 weeks)
I know that everyone has it rough financially, especially at the holidays, but if you can swing anything I'd be very appreciative.
Also if anyone is hiring a corporate travel agent or travel coordinator in the NJ area (Apollo GDS) paying in the $45+ range please let me know, I've 25 years experience.
( Depression ahead, feel free to skip. )
I want to be an actress = that's not a real job
I want to be an archeologist = you're not smart enough
I want to be a teacher = no one would listen to you
I want to be a writer = you spent too much time inside your head
I want to travel the world = you'll end up dead in some back alley
I want to sing = you're terrible at it
I want to be loved = that's a stupid thing to want
Who would dream after a lifetime of that? What would you even dream of?
Last night, thanks to a friend who got comp tickets I got to see Once on Broadway before Arthur Darvil leaves at the end of the month. It was a great show, the music heartfelt and lively. I don't always connect to music and for me to forget who I was watching and instead listen tells me how good Arthur was.
I'd met Arthur at Hurricane Who, a Doctor Who convention in Orlando, two years ago. I was part of the staff so we spent quite a bit of time together. But hey, it was a convention two years ago, I had only mild hope he'd remember who I was. When he looked up at me, really looked, not the polite, hello yes I'll take a picture with you, he nearly dove over the barrier that was there to protect him! He was all smiles and laughs and hugs (nobody online got hugs but me). He admonished me for waiting so long to come see him and was bummed that he couldn't come out for drinks after the show with me, instead the cast was going to a studio to rehearse/record for a show they are doing at the Highline Ballroom before he leaves NYC.
I've been rather depressed lately, all that for another post, but this really put a smile on my face that was truly needed.
I SWEAR the pic with John pose was not my idea!! I'm innocent this time. He just grabbed me from behind, hence the rather startled but pleased look on my face. When he saw it he signed it 'Love your boobs!'