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To all my friends and family,

You may be family by blood, choosing or a new friend I’ve never met.

To say that this year has been bad would be an understatement. I’ve gone through rough years, lean years, unemployment and life threatening illnesses before, seriously, the ICU nurses know me. But this year got to me. This year I suffered from depression the likes I’ve never seen. I had to beg for money. It was humiliating and eye opening. I’ve had to re-evaluate my life, my friends, needs and my priorities.
The people who stepped up to the plate and helped me without judgment, you have no idea what you have really done. You have saved my life. I don’t mean that as an over dramatization. Less than six months ago I was set to end my life. I have no immediate support system. No spouse/boyfriend to share my burden with. My friends and family have their own lives to contend with, and I didn’t want to make their lives worse. I don’t know what I would have done if certain people hadn’t reached down into the hole I’d curled up in and hauled me out.

Whether it was a phone call, a text, an email; emotional or financial. You all saved me. (Especially one person)

Do I still have debt? Yes, but at the moment I’m not drowning and there is a plan in place for the coming year to begin life again. I’m trying to find out who I’m meant to be and at almost 48, that’s a hard place to find yourself.  But I know I don’t want to have another year like this one.
Speaking of almost 48, my birthday is coming up. Usually having spent Christmas and New Year’s alone followed closely by my birthday sends me into a tailspin of emotional failure. I am very lucky when I can get a few people together for a few drinks for my birthday. But this year I’m asking for something different.

I’m not in a position to pay it forward yet, but I’d like to try through all of you. Do me a favor? Do someone else a favor. Take a few bucks or a few hours and do some good. Donate to a good cause, an established charity, buy a homeless person a meal. Plant a tree, go through your closet and donate some old clothes.

And since it is MY birthday, let me know what you’ve done. C’mon, give me the warm fuzzies for my birthday.


Date: 2014-12-23 09:17 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] alafaye
*hugs* It is one of those things I wonder about, when thinking about the future of fandom. It's an extended family to me, one that I can come to with other things, not just fan stuff. I don't know what we'd do without each other.

My sister and I--I get a specialty ham from the owners of my store as a Christmas bonus, but since it's just her and I we took the suggestion from one of the assistant managers to bring it to a soup kitchen. I decided that if I had to go there, to see if anyone else wanted to donate there. So this morning my sister and I took the donations out to the kitchen and dropped it all off. :)

Date: 2014-12-25 12:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emyrldlady.livejournal.com
That is wonderful about the ham. I've started sorting clothes and books that I will donate in the coming weeks/months in prep for moving. Yes I'm downsizing, but hopefully someone else will benefit.

Date: 2014-12-25 02:55 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] alafaye
We do try :)

As someone who shops for clothes mainly at thrift and second hand, I can honestly say that someone will not only benefit, but enjoy the books and clothes :D

Date: 2014-12-24 03:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thrace-adams.livejournal.com
*hugs you hard* I sincerely hope that 2015 treats you so much better.

We are in Ohio visiting family for the holidays. This will be the second Christmas since we've been married that both sides will be celebrating together. It should be interesting... My MIL is cooking/hosting and is doing Honey Baked Ham, prime rib, mashed potatoes, scalloped potatoes, some kind of veggie, my parents are bringing pumpkin pie and cherry pie and a cranberry jello salad. Here's hoping we all get along *fingers crossed*

And I want to wish you the very best of Christmas's, New Year's and Birthdays <333
Edited Date: 2014-12-24 03:02 pm (UTC)

Date: 2014-12-25 12:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emyrldlady.livejournal.com
Thank you and warm wishes to you and your family as well. I'm at home with Christmas music on, having some shrimp and crab and a hot toddy.

Date: 2014-12-25 02:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thrace-adams.livejournal.com
Oooh that sounds YUMMY!!!! I hope you enjoy it <3333 And thank you for the warm wishes.



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