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Every day isn't going to be great. I know that. I pushed myself hard this weekend because I was finally feeling good. I did some hard housecleaning and loads of laundry that need to be carried up and down a few flights of stairs. Sunday at the gym I pushed harder. I did a heavy grocery shopping that also had me hauling things up and down stairs. By the time mid day hit on Sunday I was paying for all of that. I'm not going to the gym today and I'm ok with that. But I also got very down on myself last night. I had been talking about ideas for a career change and going back to school with a friend on Saturday. I tried to do some research and ended up pretty depressed. The costs are just so hard for me to comprehend. I still have to check out resources but I'm stumped. My bad credit won't help with a loan and how does one qualify for some sort of scholarship when they haven't been inside a school for 30 years. So yeah. I was pretty down last night and it's lingering this morning. But I'm still going to try. There are going to be ups and downs. You can't just miraculously wake up one day and your depression and bad habits are gone. I overate last night. Not dramatically. I didn't eat a pint of ice cream or had fast food. But I did go over my carb limit and I'm a little disappointed in myself. But Rome wasn't built in a day. Thanks for listening.

Date: 2014-11-10 05:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thrace-adams.livejournal.com
*HUGS* You can't beat yourself up too badly when you have a bad day because everyone has them. You can just say to yourself "I'll do better tomorrow." I have faith that things will work out for you. *more hugs*

Date: 2014-11-10 05:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stargazer60.livejournal.com
We all have bad days.

The important thing is not to give up. Keep plugging along.

Date: 2014-11-10 06:00 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] anathemad.livejournal.com
You did not end up here by having one bad day, and you won't stay here because of it.

Date: 2014-11-10 08:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hab318princess.livejournal.com
it's a marathon... not a sprint - but you are moving forward and that is the important thing.

Date: 2014-11-11 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wynkat1313.livejournal.com
That doing more than I maybe should have is the fucking bane of my existence. Its so hard to not use the excitement and energy when it turns up!! But, from the school of "I am a horrible warning" - the more patience you can have with yourself and the more you learn to pace yourself, the more you will actually get of what you want - in the end. (I'm kind of an insta grat girl so ugh!)

More hugs on the school thing, the prices are insane. things that come to mind: community level colleges, where the cost tends to be more manageable, and grants. Its been years since I hunted up grant info - but I do recall that its an area where you place to your -isms - grants for women, for your age, for going back to school. might help?



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